This Week’s Quotation:
“The explosion inside continued to do its work. I felt terribly alone, with hardly a friend in the world. Energetically, the impact rattled around in my body and seemed to explode out of the top of my head. In a way I had never known before, I felt connected to an invisible reality above me that was there for me, holding me steady in the midst of the personal crisis.”
— Becoming a Sun, page 258
Inner Upheaval as a Gateway to Presence
Have you ever had a time like this? A time when something inside starts to unravel. Old ways of being no longer work. Identities we once leaned on suddenly feel thin or untrue. What once gave us a sense of stability slips away. These moments can feel frightening, disorienting, and deeply lonely.
And yet, they are often invitations.
When the outer layers of the self start to come undone, it doesn’t mean something has gone wrong. Perhaps something deeper is trying to come forward. Beneath our habits, defenses, expectations, and stories about who we are, there is a Presence that does not collapse when life gets intense. There is a deeper ground that remains steady, even when everything else feels uncertain.
Transformation doesn’t come from fixing the upheaval or escaping it. It comes through presence. Through staying connected to what is true. Through letting ourselves be held by something larger. When we stop trying to manage the experience and instead listen inwardly, a quieter strength begins to emerge.
It’s not about becoming someone new. It’s about remembering what has always been here. In the midst of inner turbulence, we are offered an opportunity to stand in a deeper center. And from that place, a truer way of being can begin to form.
What does it mean to become a sun?
Every human being is already a sun on the inside—a being of intense love and light. The difference is that some people have the vision and courage to become a sun on the outside. This difference is our human destiny.
Transformation doesn’t come from fixing the upheaval or escaping it. It comes through presence. Through staying connected to what is true. Through letting ourselves be held by something larger. When we stop trying to manage the experience and instead listen inwardly, a quieter strength begins to emerge.
This whole offering is such a gift!!! Thank you, Katie
Thank you for bringing the truth and experience of these words to the fore. The release of the old and welcoming the new, for me, is a basic and essential rhythm of life, and essentially an “ inside job”. My internal connection with the Source and flow of life allows constant release and birth, letting all things be made new.
Beautifully said, it’s about honoring the earth-heaven connection, staying firmly rooted in the soil-soul…
The recent power outages here on Sunrise Ranch have been quite challenging. But, as you indicate, Lana, perhaps we simply see this as “an opportunity to stand in a deeper center,” reminding ourselves that there is one power source that never shuts down: the Ordering Power of Love.
I have been undergoing such an experience now for a few weeks. I invited it and welcome it, though it has been, I can safely say, the most challenging I can recall. It is the way forward,to clarity and freedom of expression. What is evident is that every experience I’ve had in the past that challenged me to dare, to be strong, to hold to the truth as I knew it , has prepared me for this and no doubt this too will aid me for whatever is to come. as ever, thankfulness is the unfailing compass when thoughts seem in doubt,emotions feel turbulent. When we yield, we are guided and as I’ve recently and gratefully discovered, thanks to our wise and loving leadership, when we a re open, we are upheld.
Life present’s us with so many challenges. Our universe is constantly calling us to stand steady in the midst of the storms that life bring to us. there is something reverant and sacred to experience in these moments. Allowing for gratitude and forgiveness to be held for the opportunities that are brought for each of us to bring our life’s presence to this universe